Passing the Time

Man, I've gotten lazy. I know, I know, my goal with all of this was to write every day. Well, I'm not going to. I might get better, but I think I burned myself out initially. The last several days have been rather uneventful and yet, I feel like we've been busy. I had an appointment on Wednesday, that went well. Abby was in daycare all day on Wednesday too...yesterday was fine, had a play date in the morning, took a nap in the afternoon. Those kids wore me out! We had a blast though. We did finger painting. I had drawn animals in stained-glass style on pieces of wax paper. The kids painted on them, and when you flip them over, it looks very remotely like stained glass. Amy, another mom, brought little wooden bird houses to paint. Daughter loved hers. She meticulously painted with her brushes and patiently tried to coat each side of the house. Absolutely adorable. Husband and I were looking forward to our two favorite shows, Burn Notice and Royal Pains, which weren't on last night after all. He has a 4 day weekend and has been working on our built-in office project. We put a counter top and shelf in a large closet near our kitchen to use as an office. So far...it could be going better, but bottom line, it will be done eventually. Yeah, I said eventually. He is brilliant but unorganized and I feel like this project is really showing that. I've been pursuing information on starting my own photography business. Between the start-up money, the income tax requirements, and not knowing whether or not I need a business license, I'm really at my wits-end. I would LOVE to do this, but I'm really struggling with whether now is the time or not. All I can do is keep working toward my goal and I am not giving up, just trying to practice patience - this could take awhile. My two bests and I haven't had much time to talk. Everyone has such completely different schedules and we are all so busy, it is hard to keep up. We do a lot of texting. One has got men on her mind. The other has got men and everything else on hers. I hope we get to see each other again this year. Time flies and it passes painfully slowly, funny how it never seems just right.

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I recently read a couple passages from the Bible that really put life into perspective for me when I get into a rut. The summation - tomorrow is promised to no one. Many live this idea carelessly by "living it up." I find that the idea that my tomorrow, my husband's tomorrow, and even my child's tomorrow is not promised to them or to me - it makes me hold them a little longer. It makes me utter "I love you" a little more often. I find myself sending up whispered prayers for their safety and for our next sunrise. It inspires me to try to be a better daughter, mother, wife, and friend. It isn't easy, I don't always succeed. At the very least, though, I know I get it. I get what life's all about. I am forever grateful for that because I don't feel like I miss anything. I live and I love without regret. I often remind myself of the most simple of verses but one that certainly puts the tiny grain of sand that is my life into perspective - He must become greater. I must become less (John 3:30). This is His journey, and I have been blessed to be a part of the human race, the history of mankind. I am thankful for each day because I know my days are finite. I know that all of us here on this earth now will cease to be here some day. I often think many don't get this simple reality. I try hard to never forget, to keep on loving, and to gently remind all of those who may have forgotten, that it isn't too late to change.