My Persons...

So today, today has been a little rough for me. To make a long story short (which people rarely do), my person (a.k.a. best friend) and I got into an argument on Saturday. If that wasn't bad enough, it was via texting (I know, I know, can't people just fight face to face anymore?). Mostly it was a miscommunication but while we talked today, we realized that maybe we just needed to talk about some things on our minds. I've known her for 3 years and we've never fought. Ever. I don't even think we'd really raised our voices at each other. It was awkward and made us both feel weird but I think it was inevitable. You can't care about someone as much as you care about a best friend without throwing something out there that they aren't necessarily going to agree with. That is where I was at fault. My person and I agree on most things, at least most important things, but there is at least one subject on which we agree to differ. I hurt her with the way I was saying some things and while that wasn't my intention, in hindsight, I can see how my opinion came across as intolerant. Person (you know who you are): I'm sorry, publicly sorry. The texting argument was a bit different but ultimately, it allowed us to talk about something that had been bothering me, and I didn't even realize that it had. That has now been resolved too. I think it will still be strange for a bit to know that we fought..that we disagreed, that we've said some things that have been hurtful to the other. I think no matter how much we say it is all ok now, it will still feel a little funny when we talk. It is harder to make up because she lives 1000 miles away from me. I can't run over to her house, drink a beer with her, laugh at something ridiculous, and realize that we are the same best friends that we've always been. We have to have a friendship via phone, at least for the next two years. We have a friendship that consists mainly of conversation - we tend to get into the deep discussions of life, love, faith, and what really matters on almost all occasions that we talk. We don't have the luxury of hanging out together in silence watching movies, or going shopping for nothing in particular, or wandering around the bookstore to scope out hottie employees or laugh at the audacity of what some people deem printable material. We have A LOT of substance to this friendship, but we're lacking in the fun fluff that makes up the rest. No one's fault but it does make it hard. It makes you miss a person, that's for sure. Our mutual other person is going through a lot of her own heartache right now. That's hard too, none of us really live all that close to each other, they are 2 hours from one another, and I'm 16 from both of them. As my first Person always reminds me, "We'll always have this - we got tattooed together" - and that always makes me smile. I was telling her today that I've realized that sometimes, no matter what you do, or what choices you make, things can change and then she'll say something like, "We're badasses and you're my ride or die." and then I know we're all lifers in this relationship & distance doesn't seem to matter at all.